Sunday, September 5, 2010
God is not mysterious!
He has made know to us the mystery of His will. He said that if we follow Him, He will guide our paths. He is not a mystery. He is found if we seek Him. If we delight in Him, He will give us the desire of our hearts. He also says His ways are our ways. Of course they are not, He is GOD. I have been able to enjoy a lot of free time lately because God has allowed it. I am to use it though to spend time with Him. If I allow my time to be idle then the enemy is going to get a hold of my head and my thoughts and destroy me. I do not want that to happen. God's word says to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. I am going to do so. I also wonder if I should take a Facebook break again too. I think there is one in my future. I usually have a ton of stuff going through my head and today I decided to hash some things out on here. So, sorry if this is a weird post. It's my blog I can do what I want. :-) Anyway, I feel a little better now. I am going to read a real book today and then reflect on God's word. What a novel idea. Happy Labor Day, is that appropriate to say? Oh well, enjoy the 3 day weekend.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
SITG (Still in the Game) just a different game!!
Sooo. God has closed some doors and allowed me to have some time to rest. By rest I mean that I am only busy Monday, Tuesday and Wednesdays now. I can take time to exercise and spend time with the Lord. Oh yeah and work on my job. I was hoping to begin grad school online at Liberty this week and thus begin my M.A.R. (Master's of Arts in Religion). However, some doors have closed and I am going another direction. Here's the kicker, I am not sure what I am to do next. I am going to do my job heartily as for the Lord and take care of myself. I am not sure what is on the horizon but, God is.
Pray for me because I get anxious when things change for "no reason." But I also know that "God has not given me the spirit of fear but of power and love and sound judgment." 2 Timothy 1:7
"He is in control and I am not, and if I am in control, He is not." Scott P.
Stay Tuned...
Pray for me because I get anxious when things change for "no reason." But I also know that "God has not given me the spirit of fear but of power and love and sound judgment." 2 Timothy 1:7
"He is in control and I am not, and if I am in control, He is not." Scott P.
Stay Tuned...
Monday, August 2, 2010
GBITG! (Get back in the game)
It is August 3rd and this is my last week of blissful rest. As of Monday I will be "getting back in the game." The game is changing this year and I pray I am ready. I have had a lot of change in the past years and this one is no different. I am ready though because I have spent time with the Father. He has shown me that He is Sovereign, He is my sufficiency and He is my Master.
Here is what I learned during the "time out" of summer:
I began this summer teaching summer school and I had to figure out new ways to reach the kids. I had a class of 10 some of which were bilingual, and most of which were Special Ed and then there were the few that were both. I learned to make sure all of them had their individual needs met as well as what to look for in my own children in class this year. They each deserve the same chance and I can be their advocate in anyway I can. I also learned that I am to be there for my co-workers. Many of the teachers that I came into contact with were LOST. They did not desire the Lord nor did they realize their need for Him. One day as clear as a bell I heard The Father say. "You are to be in the classroom until I remove you. Here is mission field." I love it when He speaks to me clearly like that.
I also learned that He is not only the Sovereign God, He is my sufficiency. You would have thought I would have learned that based on the name of my blog but ohh how God uses others things to teach me more about Him. I went to the Canary Islands again and I love that place. It could be because of the kids, or the people I traveled with or the beauty of the island. No matter what God uses that place to speak to me. Hence the reason I know Him as my El Shaddai (my sufficiency). I have come to a place that I know He is enough and His grace is enough. I still desire to be married and have children but only when He chooses that for me.
Before I left for the Canary Islands I got very sick. I wasn't able to keep anything down and actually thought my appendix was rupturing. There was another instance where God made me rely on Him. After visiting the doctor and lots of medicine later. I was cleared to go on the trip and because of that last effort of the enemy to thwart God's plans, I knew I was to listen to what God had for me. All of that to say I am ready to get back in the game!!! I am ready to learn what God has for me and to be a blessing to others because I have been blessed.
I will probably write more because I am again on a journey. This time i desire to be more purposeful and intentional. I am excited to see what God will do.
Here is what I learned during the "time out" of summer:
I began this summer teaching summer school and I had to figure out new ways to reach the kids. I had a class of 10 some of which were bilingual, and most of which were Special Ed and then there were the few that were both. I learned to make sure all of them had their individual needs met as well as what to look for in my own children in class this year. They each deserve the same chance and I can be their advocate in anyway I can. I also learned that I am to be there for my co-workers. Many of the teachers that I came into contact with were LOST. They did not desire the Lord nor did they realize their need for Him. One day as clear as a bell I heard The Father say. "You are to be in the classroom until I remove you. Here is mission field." I love it when He speaks to me clearly like that.
I also learned that He is not only the Sovereign God, He is my sufficiency. You would have thought I would have learned that based on the name of my blog but ohh how God uses others things to teach me more about Him. I went to the Canary Islands again and I love that place. It could be because of the kids, or the people I traveled with or the beauty of the island. No matter what God uses that place to speak to me. Hence the reason I know Him as my El Shaddai (my sufficiency). I have come to a place that I know He is enough and His grace is enough. I still desire to be married and have children but only when He chooses that for me.
Before I left for the Canary Islands I got very sick. I wasn't able to keep anything down and actually thought my appendix was rupturing. There was another instance where God made me rely on Him. After visiting the doctor and lots of medicine later. I was cleared to go on the trip and because of that last effort of the enemy to thwart God's plans, I knew I was to listen to what God had for me. All of that to say I am ready to get back in the game!!! I am ready to learn what God has for me and to be a blessing to others because I have been blessed.
I will probably write more because I am again on a journey. This time i desire to be more purposeful and intentional. I am excited to see what God will do.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Countdown to the Canary Islands
I am leaving for a mission trip Friday and I am so excited. Of course with all of the excitement comes a ton of preparation. Also, not lacking this year...an attack from the enemy. We have 6 people going and we have all had our "things." One huge one is a lady that none of us had met is dealing with The BP oil spill. She is finally headed home tomorrow. We will get to meet her and then head out on Friday a few other things have happened I won't mention but just please if you read this pray for our trip. When Satan tries to attack we know he is worried. GOD is in control and WE have the Victory.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
A New Venture
In the last month 5 men that I have "dated" in the past have resurfaced.
FIVE! 5!
WHAT THE HELL???? sorry ;-( Anyway, I keep wondering if my ex-husband will show up too the way things had been going. Oh wait, he did. He showed up as my friends match on Match.com. She wasn't sure if that was him or not so she sent me his profile... YEP! She opted to not contact him but we did debate all (about 300 of us) going to meet him in a dark alley...but decided he wasn't worth going to jail for. Kidding we were not going to do anything like that. "'Vengeance is MINE' saith the LORD, 'I will repay'"
"Serenity NOW!", I say!
Next, I finally had to tell one ex-boyfriend that there "isn't now, nor will there be anything between us. I am just not that into you."
A New Venture:
Red Flag #1
So, for years I have been against online dating. I thought if you connect or reconnect with someone through Facebook then OK but, online? My reason...that is me seeking a man not him being the initiator. But after speaking to a friend she said that "God can use the internet, he doesn't need people either but chooses to use them too." So, one lonely Friday night I joined an online dating service. I had heard about this site through someone that actually had just celebrated their 3rd wedding anniversary after meeting online so I was hopeful.
Day one: I fill out the questionnaire and post some pictures. I was very detailed in what I am looking for in a mate so I was very pleased in the responses I got within a few hours. Wouldn't you know it, there are some very good looking people out there, who, like me, are alone and are looking. We all have good intentions and well, we just want to find the right person. I get a few "flirts" and a couple of messages. I am excited because finally...God does use the internet. Hallelujah! or (Alleluia!)???
Day 2: I get even more "profile views" and there are even some people that have never been married or people that are widowed. Some with kids, some with out. How cool if I could find someone that has kids and the mom had passed away. I could be that mom that took the kids under my wing, had some of our own and could be the kind of mom I had and step mom I have. Wow. So excited that God is using the internet.
Day 3: Umm, a guy has shown interest a few times (red flag?) and I think he is kinda cute. I read his profile and seems to know the Lord and he actually sends me a message with his email address because he actually doesn't get on the site too much. He even has a picture with his son. What a cutie.
Day 5: Things are going well. He and I email and I am still using my alias and a brand new email address. Specifically for this dating site. I don't want people to know the real address yet. Then I can cancel it anytime and be OK. This guys misses his wife of 10 years and is living with his mom and 2 kids b/c he is a Vet and they aren't old enough to be in school all day. Now, mind you, any man that is 40+ and lives with his mom....RED FLAG!!!!!!!
Day 6: We still email everyday and he just "happens" to be out of the country (England) for his mom's surgery and wants to chat. No Facebook or MySpace page though. Hmmm...and no response to the FB or MS page question ( do you have one?). I don't feel too comfortable but I do give him my number. I think "Well, he may be new to social networking so I'll let it pass." RED FLAG!!!! Last question that was in an email was...So tell me about your friends. NO ANSWER. but I did get a call after midnight last night. Ummm I DO NOT ANSWER THE PHONE AFTER 10:00 PM. much less midnight from an unknown number. but since I am anxious to hear his voice but ticked it is so late, I listen to the voicemail. RED FLAG!!!!! What kind of accent is that??? Where are you from and what do you do???? Huh, did you say you miss me? Did you somewhat sound like a serial killer? It takes a while...6 days to be exact but I know a RED FLAG WHEN I SEE IT!!!!!!
Moral of the story: God will bring my future mate to my front door if He chooses. He doesn't need the internet. Why? Because HE IS GOD!!!
I think I'll just hang out at church. Surely everyone there is normal.
FIVE! 5!
WHAT THE HELL???? sorry ;-( Anyway, I keep wondering if my ex-husband will show up too the way things had been going. Oh wait, he did. He showed up as my friends match on Match.com. She wasn't sure if that was him or not so she sent me his profile... YEP! She opted to not contact him but we did debate all (about 300 of us) going to meet him in a dark alley...but decided he wasn't worth going to jail for. Kidding we were not going to do anything like that. "'Vengeance is MINE' saith the LORD, 'I will repay'"
"Serenity NOW!", I say!
Next, I finally had to tell one ex-boyfriend that there "isn't now, nor will there be anything between us. I am just not that into you."
A New Venture:
Red Flag #1
So, for years I have been against online dating. I thought if you connect or reconnect with someone through Facebook then OK but, online? My reason...that is me seeking a man not him being the initiator. But after speaking to a friend she said that "God can use the internet, he doesn't need people either but chooses to use them too." So, one lonely Friday night I joined an online dating service. I had heard about this site through someone that actually had just celebrated their 3rd wedding anniversary after meeting online so I was hopeful.
Day one: I fill out the questionnaire and post some pictures. I was very detailed in what I am looking for in a mate so I was very pleased in the responses I got within a few hours. Wouldn't you know it, there are some very good looking people out there, who, like me, are alone and are looking. We all have good intentions and well, we just want to find the right person. I get a few "flirts" and a couple of messages. I am excited because finally...God does use the internet. Hallelujah! or (Alleluia!)???
Day 2: I get even more "profile views" and there are even some people that have never been married or people that are widowed. Some with kids, some with out. How cool if I could find someone that has kids and the mom had passed away. I could be that mom that took the kids under my wing, had some of our own and could be the kind of mom I had and step mom I have. Wow. So excited that God is using the internet.
Day 3: Umm, a guy has shown interest a few times (red flag?) and I think he is kinda cute. I read his profile and seems to know the Lord and he actually sends me a message with his email address because he actually doesn't get on the site too much. He even has a picture with his son. What a cutie.
Day 5: Things are going well. He and I email and I am still using my alias and a brand new email address. Specifically for this dating site. I don't want people to know the real address yet. Then I can cancel it anytime and be OK. This guys misses his wife of 10 years and is living with his mom and 2 kids b/c he is a Vet and they aren't old enough to be in school all day. Now, mind you, any man that is 40+ and lives with his mom....RED FLAG!!!!!!!
Day 6: We still email everyday and he just "happens" to be out of the country (England) for his mom's surgery and wants to chat. No Facebook or MySpace page though. Hmmm...and no response to the FB or MS page question ( do you have one?). I don't feel too comfortable but I do give him my number. I think "Well, he may be new to social networking so I'll let it pass." RED FLAG!!!! Last question that was in an email was...So tell me about your friends. NO ANSWER. but I did get a call after midnight last night. Ummm I DO NOT ANSWER THE PHONE AFTER 10:00 PM. much less midnight from an unknown number. but since I am anxious to hear his voice but ticked it is so late, I listen to the voicemail. RED FLAG!!!!! What kind of accent is that??? Where are you from and what do you do???? Huh, did you say you miss me? Did you somewhat sound like a serial killer? It takes a while...6 days to be exact but I know a RED FLAG WHEN I SEE IT!!!!!!
Moral of the story: God will bring my future mate to my front door if He chooses. He doesn't need the internet. Why? Because HE IS GOD!!!
I think I'll just hang out at church. Surely everyone there is normal.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Reunion and Pot Roast
I have decided not to go to my 20 year HS reunion. I have mixed feeling about not going but they outweigh spending $42.00 or $60.00 at the door.
I had fun in HS but since I am not the shy reserved person I used to be I would know about 20 people and, thanks to FB I have already gotten in touch with them. I know I sound super cynical lately but sometimes you just feel that way.
I made a pot roast tonight and it is soo great! I do not remember all I put in it but I am dang proud of myself. My momma had a knack for putting things together and not having a recipe or so it seemed and I kinda have it too. Hallelujah for small things.
I had fun in HS but since I am not the shy reserved person I used to be I would know about 20 people and, thanks to FB I have already gotten in touch with them. I know I sound super cynical lately but sometimes you just feel that way.
I made a pot roast tonight and it is soo great! I do not remember all I put in it but I am dang proud of myself. My momma had a knack for putting things together and not having a recipe or so it seemed and I kinda have it too. Hallelujah for small things.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Day 3 of Summer
I HATE living alone. But God and I have some stuff to work on for sure. Oh well I will be ok. I hate CHANGE!!! Hate it.. But God is in control.
On a different note my dog is crazy. She has asked to go out 5 times in the last hour and all she does is "preach" to the neighbors. Poor girl.
I am not too happy but maybe this is what I needed. Time alone. Time with my Lord. Time to grow and do what I am supposed to.
More Later.
On a different note my dog is crazy. She has asked to go out 5 times in the last hour and all she does is "preach" to the neighbors. Poor girl.
I am not too happy but maybe this is what I needed. Time alone. Time with my Lord. Time to grow and do what I am supposed to.
More Later.
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