A New Venture

In the last month 5 men that I have "dated" in the past have resurfaced.
FIVE! 5!
WHAT THE HELL???? sorry ;-( Anyway, I keep wondering if my ex-husband will show up too the way things had been going. Oh wait, he did. He showed up as my friends match on Match.com. She wasn't sure if that was him or not so she sent me his profile... YEP! She opted to not contact him but we did debate all (about 300 of us) going to meet him in a dark alley...but decided he wasn't worth going to jail for. Kidding we were not going to do anything like that. "'Vengeance is MINE' saith the LORD, 'I will repay'"
"Serenity NOW!", I say!

Next, I finally had to tell one ex-boyfriend that there "isn't now, nor will there be anything between us. I am just not that into you."
A New Venture:
Red Flag #1
So, for years I have been against online dating. I thought if you connect or reconnect with someone through Facebook then OK but, online? My reason...that is me seeking a man not him being the initiator. But after speaking to a friend she said that "God can use the internet, he doesn't need people either but chooses to use them too." So, one lonely Friday night I joined an online dating service. I had heard about this site through someone that actually had just celebrated their 3rd wedding anniversary after meeting online so I was hopeful.

Day one: I fill out the questionnaire and post some pictures. I was very detailed in what I am looking for in a mate so I was very pleased in the responses I got within a few hours. Wouldn't you know it, there are some very good looking people out there, who, like me, are alone and are looking. We all have good intentions and well, we just want to find the right person. I get a few "flirts" and a couple of messages. I am excited because finally...God does use the internet. Hallelujah! or (Alleluia!)???

Day 2: I get even more "profile views" and there are even some people that have never been married or people that are widowed. Some with kids, some with out. How cool if I could find someone that has kids and the mom had passed away. I could be that mom that took the kids under my wing, had some of our own and could be the kind of mom I had and step mom I have. Wow. So excited that God is using the internet.

Day 3: Umm, a guy has shown interest a few times (red flag?) and I think he is kinda cute. I read his profile and seems to know the Lord and he actually sends me a message with his email address because he actually doesn't get on the site too much. He even has a picture with his son. What a cutie.

Day 5: Things are going well. He and I email and I am still using my alias and a brand new email address. Specifically for this dating site. I don't want people to know the real address yet. Then I can cancel it anytime and be OK. This guys misses his wife of 10 years and is living with his mom and 2 kids b/c he is a Vet and they aren't old enough to be in school all day. Now, mind you, any man that is 40+ and lives with his mom....RED FLAG!!!!!!!

Day 6: We still email everyday and he just "happens" to be out of the country (England) for his mom's surgery and wants to chat. No Facebook or MySpace page though. Hmmm...and no response to the FB or MS page question ( do you have one?). I don't feel too comfortable but I do give him my number. I think "Well, he may be new to social networking so I'll let it pass." RED FLAG!!!! Last question that was in an email was...So tell me about your friends. NO ANSWER. but I did get a call after midnight last night. Ummm I DO NOT ANSWER THE PHONE AFTER 10:00 PM. much less midnight from an unknown number. but since I am anxious to hear his voice but ticked it is so late, I listen to the voicemail. RED FLAG!!!!! What kind of accent is that??? Where are you from and what do you do???? Huh, did you say you miss me? Did you somewhat sound like a serial killer? It takes a while...6 days to be exact but I know a RED FLAG WHEN I SEE IT!!!!!!

Moral of the story: God will bring my future mate to my front door if He chooses. He doesn't need the internet. Why? Because HE IS GOD!!!

I think I'll just hang out at church. Surely everyone there is normal.

Reunion and Pot Roast

I have decided not to go to my 20 year HS reunion. I have mixed feeling about not going but they outweigh spending $42.00 or $60.00 at the door.
I had fun in HS but since I am not the shy reserved person I used to be I would know about 20 people and, thanks to FB I have already gotten in touch with them. I know I sound super cynical lately but sometimes you just feel that way.

I made a pot roast tonight and it is soo great! I do not remember all I put in it but I am dang proud of myself. My momma had a knack for putting things together and not having a recipe or so it seemed and I kinda have it too. Hallelujah for small things.

Day 3 of Summer

I HATE living alone. But God and I have some stuff to work on for sure. Oh well I will be ok. I hate CHANGE!!! Hate it.. But God is in control.

On a different note my dog is crazy. She has asked to go out 5 times in the last hour and all she does is "preach" to the neighbors. Poor girl.
I am not too happy but maybe this is what I needed. Time alone. Time with my Lord. Time to grow and do what I am supposed to.


More Later.